These days, I am beginning to not trust myself.
For a period of time, I have come to think that my thoughts are the truth.
However, I soon realized that is not the case.
For instance, when I see someone more successful than I am, I will immediately think that “I am not good enough”.
As a result of that thought pattern, I have not been able to truly celebrate in the success of others.
Instead, I feel lousy. I am envious. At times, I am even resentful.
I have been seeking therapy since August this year. And I am pleased with my progress.
Now I learned to examine my thoughts. To critically ask myself if my thoughts are a reflection of the truth. Or otherwise.
I now realized that my brain has been playing tricks on me.
Now, I am able to genuinely celebrate in the success of others. To be happy for them. And also to learn from them.