As I’m getting closer to publishing my 100th post, I have recently conducted an evaluation of my efforts. In conducting this evaluation, there are two aspects that I am looking at:
- Performance analysis: are my efforts paying off?
- Improvements: what can I do better or differently?
Why I write
To conduct such an evaluation requires re-examining the fundamental “why” question. Why am I taking time to write?
When I first started writing, I was suffering from depression. Though my life in the people and professional domains were doing exceedingly well, I was not doing all that great in my personal life. And I turned to reading God’s word and then writing whatever comes to me as a remedy for my depressed state in the personal domain.
Psalm 119:114 (NIV):
You are my refuge and my shield; I have put my hope in your word.
Sense of purpose
As I took the time each morning to read the Bible, pray, and write, the process gave me immense clarity to start my day. It gave me a purpose. And the writing served as a daily reminder, especially when I am swarmed with so many different thoughts and ideas. And as I am drowning in information, what I truly need is a sense of purpose and direction that points me towards where I should go.
For my eyes only
During the time where I would post my writings online every day, I would also get responses from friends who shared how my writings have impacted them. And this led me to the next question: should my writings be kept private and not shared with the world?
I am firmly reminded that be careful not to practice your righteousness in front of others to be seen by them. That I am writing not to show others how righteous I am. The reason I write and publish is because I want my children to know me should I not have the ability to share with them my life experiences in person.
Carry my cross, daily
Besides, as a follower of Jesus Christ, I am struggling each day to carry my own cross. And the rationale for this is so that I can become a better person, to become who God wants me to be. As such I am also mindful of this:
No one who wants to be a public figure acts in secret. Since you are doing these things, show yourself to the world. ~John 7:4 (NIV)
What’s my purpose?
So the next question is simply this: What’s your purpose for doing these things?
As I sat down to evaluate, it is deeply rooted in my mind that as a Creative Influencer, my call-to-action is to influence someone in a creative manner to take action towards a specific result, starting today.
And that call-to-action is urgent. As author of Die Empty, Todd Henry said:
Your days are numbered. Finite. They will run out. This is indisputable. We live with the stubborn illusion that we will always have tomorrow to do today’s work. It’s a lie. Today is all you have for certain. How are you using it?
As the late Steve Jobs reminded us in his commencement speech:
Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.
Oogway in Kung-fu Panda famously said:
You are too concerned about what was and what will be. There is a saying: yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called “present”.
W. H. Murray said it best:
Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it.
Boldness has genius, magic, and power in it.
Begin it now.
Proverbs 27:1 (NIV):
Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring.
And James 4:13-15 (NIV):
Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.”
Moving forward, after my 100th post, I will be making some changes to the format and medium that I will use to communicate my writings.
I’d like you to stay with me.